Stress...

So it's 1 am and I'm still awake. I've had a lot of things racing through my mind these past few days and it all finally burst. I typed up all the things that have been clogging my mind... 1 1/2 pages later, I feel much better. I've never ever written down all of my worries and stresses before... it actually feels quite good. I've realized lately that I'm a huge ball of stress; I worry about too many things that are out of my control. I'm trying to teach myself not to worry so much. Writing this note I think is the beginning of a whole new me... at least a less stressed me. Hopefully now that I've got that off my chest and printed on two sheets of paper, my little tired eyelids will close and I'll fall fast asleep. I highly recommend the self help of writing down what's on your mind... it truly helps and it's cheap!

One crammed week

I can't believe all of the things that got crammed into one week. This past week was Mike's Spring break from school so I was actually able to spend the evenings with him! It was great.

Monday, Mike planned a super fun, super spontaneous date...Costa Vida dinner and watched the movie RED.

Tuesday we went to Bountiful for a wedding reception of a sister missionary from Mike's mission. Afterwards, we headed up to the Temple and were able to complete a session there. I love the feeling of being in the temple and we are so blessed to have so many close by. The Bountiful Temple is my #1 favorite and has been forever. It was a perfect day.

Wednesday after work and the gym, my incredible mom helped me finish up a baby quilt I've been trying to make for over a month now. My sweet friend found out that her 6 month old baby boy would never come home from the NICU at Primary Children's hospital and would most likely not make it to the end of the week. He has been a fighter and a mighty prince since the day he arrived here on earth. He has incredible parents who have been by his side through his earthly trial and will cherish the memories that have made together. I'm so grateful to have such an amazing friend and I feel blessed to have her in my life. We were able to get the blanket to them before their final earthly visit with their sweet baby boy.

Thursday was a great day spent with my sweet niece Whitney. Jami had a terrible experience earlier that morning so I brought Whit home with me and we had a great time together. Later that day, I received a text from my friend saying that their mighty prince has passed to the other side of the veil. It was a really rough text to read and the tears just flowed for the pain my friend was in. She has been so incredible strong and faithful through this whole experience. That night, Mike and I headed up to Idaho with my parents to go visit my sister Michelle and fam. We spent the weekend up there painting crafts... helping finish the basement... got my hair cut... talked and talked and talked with each other... made lots of fun memories. It was so nice to get out of the daily grind of life and take a mini vacation.

I found out just today that one of my hygiene classmates has past away from a tough battle of cancer. She was diagnosed the summer between our two years (18 months ago) of school and never returned with us. She started her second year this past fall and was scheduled to take boards but they found more cancer and the prognosis wasn't good. She did pass this afternoon and once again my heart just aches for the pain her family is experiencing. She was an incredible girl and I feel so blessed to have known her.

This week has taught me a lot and we have been so blessed with health and safety. I am so grateful to have the family I have and to have a testimony of the plan of salvation. My parents are my hero's and my hubby is the love of my life.

**Josh Groban**

We will be seeing my most FAVORITE singing/performer of all time in AUGUST - JOSH GROBAN!! I had no idea he was even coming to SLC until last friday I was babysitting Kayden at my mom and dad's house watching Live with Regis and Kelly and he was the guest host with Kelly. A commercial came on promoting his 2011 tour and it said that tickets go on sale at 10am that day... I had 20 minutes of pure insanity with decided whether or not to just buy tickets. So I did. I bought 4 tickets in section 19 row 4.... awesome seats!! I can't believe it!! Mike is so wonderful to let me just buy tickets out of the blue. We will have a blast together. Just watching this video gives me the chills... I CAN'T WAIT for August 13th!!!

Winter Blues

The other day, I decided that I have seasonal depression. I try to be a happy, go-lucky kinda girl. The past few weeks have been great and we've been so blessed but I've been really irritable. Mike get's the brunt of my blues and he is usually very supportive and helpful when I'm having a rough day. Exercising and eating better is definitely helping but I still have terribly low days. Well on Thursday, I had a wonderful talk with my mom about staying positive and trying my best to not get so down. She encouraged me to go see a Dr. if I think it's that bad. My mom is the best. After our conversation, I had some errands to run. So I'm headed to Riverdale and out of the blue, wet-salty tears just start flowing from my eyes. I was so confused because I was pumped from my discussion with mom but yet I was crying. That was one of the lowest days I've had in awhile. So I thought I'd call and see if my adorable niece and nephews wanted to go shopping with me because they usually cheer me up quick. Sure enough they wanted to come and we had a great time together. They are such great kids and they make me so happy. I'm so blessed to have such great caring and loving family members around me. After our errands, I treated them to dinner at Brick Oven Pizza in Layton. They were absolutely perfect and just what I needed. When I got home that night and Mike got home from school, we talked about what I discovered today and my thoughts/feelings about depression. He was so great to just listen to me. I explained how I hate being ornery/mad but not being able to stop and change my mood. I realize I'm doing it but I have an inner battle with myself and can't get out of the low feelings. Since my talk with Mike and my mom, I feel so much better for just explaining my thoughts and having them know what's going on in my mind. I love them both so much. I've got faith that things will start looking up from here on out. And plus... we woke up yesterday morning to the sound of singing birds.... it was Perfect.

Hope someday our kids....

can do this... so incredible and adorable. What a happy kid!